31 Days to Reset Your Life Challenge

Personal Mantra:

Deep within man dwell those slumbering powers; powers that would astonish him, that he never dreamed of possessing; forces that would revolutionize his life if aroused and put into action. Don't wait for extraordinary opportunities. Seize common occasions and make them great. Weak men wait for opportunities; strong men make them. Joyfulness keeps the heart and face young. A good laugh makes us better friends with ourselves and everybody around us - Orison Marden

Two days ago, I received a newsletter from happyblackwoman.com, asking me to join a challenge that would reset my life. I was like, are you kidding me? Reset my life? How? I was not willing, but something inside of me kept pushing me to join, to be part of something.

In the past two months, I have been going through a phase of confusion and laziness. Many times, I will revisit a blog or a youtube channel,  four to ten times a day because I did not know what to do with myself. I will wander around my little apartment, and fold and refold bedsheets, sweep and re-sweep floors, and stare at myself in the mirror, wondering "what if". Never mind that I had assignments to complete, and deadlines to meet, but I had no passion whatsoever. I was living but I was not alive. (*Note: This is a sign of depression, just lack of a vision and purpose)

This year has been particularly challenging for me. But I appreciate every little moment that has led me to where I am today. But today is the day that I have to decided to be ALIVE.

So I have written down goals on my blue moleskine notebook as to what I plan to achieve for the year 2011. Because 2011 is my year.

But before doing so, I will re-evaluate what I have accomplished in 2010 and what improvements I have to make so that I will not feel inadequate and lazy yet again.

Today, instead of bringing my laptop to watch kimmaytube or beautifulbrwnbabydol or blackonyx on youtube, I left it at home and decided that I was going to face my books. It is a little step but a big one for me.

Discipline is what I'd like to instill in my life beginning this day!

Tomorrow for sure will be better.